Stuck in the middle..

I have a nasty habit of getting stuck in the middle. I always find myself in situations where I'm in the middle of trying to keep two people happy.

Maybe I'm a pushover, maybe i need to grow a back bone and tell people to sort out their own bullshit but I'm so tired of always trying to please everyone.

I don't know how to be that person though. I don't know how to stick up for myself and i never have. Is this a skill i was meant to developed at some point in my life and missed? Where do i go to get some balls?

I can tell myself i don't care until the cows come home but it won't make it true. I do care, I care way too much. Probably about people who don't deserve it, and probably about situations that don't matter but its ingrained so deeply into who i am i can't change it.

Time after time i get stuck between two people trying to make both parties happy. 

What about my happiness? Who's there worrying about my happiness? I don't know. I'm not saying no one cares because i know that they do but why am i always given the title of peace keeper? 

Trying to keep someone happy who is in my life regardless of any situation that arises and trying to keep the person i want to spend my life with happy.. 

Am i missing something? Is it them that should be more understanding or am i just not trying hard enough?

I don't know but this is my ramble for today anyway.